I might be a little bit lost i mean im fine but its just why the heck if im fine if i feel good why i cant work properly? why im not? i dont get it and its gettin harder and frustrating and im confuse but im fine thats the worst part i have no excuse i was lost but then i found me and i felt bad and sad, but i dont anymore, im cool now and ok i just dont understand a shit why cant i move? how will this end?

im a little bit scared i cannot go on like this forever and im afraid of the crash i feel its chasing me already but i dont want to deal with it im petrified thats why i dont move fuckin fear fuckin terror i hope i can win this battle against myself as i always do but the question is what if i.... dont?